My GF of 2 months passed away on June 18th, 2007. and as hard as it is for me to accept it... i've cried every night and i went through a stage of not eating or sleeping. and my family is worried but this blog isnt bout me. my GF Lisa Rotini was only 17 years old she didnt deserve to pass. At first they (the doctors) thought she passed from a hemmerige but then later on when they did the odtopsy found out it was a blood clot that ruptured and came lose. she had her Funeral June 23rd, 2007. she was wearing a white dress with a ring of babys breath around her head. her coffin was a light pink. i couldnt attend the funneral but thats what i've told by her best friend. and her best From said the "speech" i wrote so that at least my words would be there. i miss her so much. at age 17 she was out-going, loving, caring, and even most she was BIG hearted. she had pretty brown eyes and long brown hair. she was the love of my life.  she understood me and cared bout me when nobody else did. me and her have and had been through the same "trama" and distaters. and we both knew what it was like to not be accepted by the people that love us, our family. Even though Lisa has passed she is still in my heart and always will be.

I havent yet figured out how to move on with my life. or how to eat every meal or how to sleep at night. but in time iwill learn how to go on about my daily life things again. she was a BIG part in my life and to have it taken away from me has taken a LARGE part of my heart.

I have to say thankx to Debbie. she is Lisa's best friend and we are keeping in touch. she has shared so many things with me like poems my baby wrote about me and fore me and pictures of my girl. and so much more. but we have both given eachother hope, curage, and everything that we might need to get through this. so thank you Debbie!

Lisa had sustained a bad beating from her step dad and that caused her to be in a lot of pain. and that also caused her death a week later. On Sunday we had talked. June 10th, 2007. that day we were talking bout how she would be here in 4 days. but the next day she passed. she's still in our hearts. I was so excited for her to be here and everything every day we would talk for hours. she would give up time with her family and friends to be with me online. and we had a lot of talks serious and funny and in the end we went to bed each night knowing that we were going to be together in a matter or days we went to bed with smiles on our faces and tears gone knowing we were both okay. yet on Monday i went to bed upset and not knowing what was wrong my GF hadnt been online at all (not normal) and then Tuesday i went to bed upset again she hadnt been on again (not normal) then wedneday i staid after school knowing today was the big day. and she never showed, i went home and checked my e-mail feeling upset and torn because nothing had gone right. but i came online and saw an e-mail under her name and it was from her friend Debbie who told me all the details. i sat in my chair for about 4 hours crying none stop not knowing what i was gunna do any more, for the love of my life had been taken away from me. so now i sit here and im still sad but yet im getting through the days with the help of Debbie and a few friends. it still doesnt feel real.

If you've had someone close to you pass then you know what it feels like. i hate the feeling. knowing im going to wake up every day and NEVER again smell her sent and never hug or kiss her. or talk to her. to know shes gone and not with us any more. it simply kills me and my heart. i feel like i wont move on but yet i might. so for this i wrote this blog to tell everyone that on June 18th, 2007 we lost a very very special girl. one who was loved by many.

-- This is all her mum's BF's fault. i hope the guy gets what he deserves. she was so sweet. i wonder to myself how could anyone beat their child or teen to the point of suffer or even at all for nothing. she suffered a week with bleeding in the brain, bruising in the stomach, and caughing up blood, head aches and lots of tears.--

*baby i miss you so much. i wish you were here. you never deserved this. i wish i could have said "i love you" one more time. and given you one last hug and one last kiss. i wish i could have been there for you all the way through. and im sorry i wasnt there on your last days. i miss you so much. my days arent the same. but Debbie is taking such good care of me and im trying to take care of her. so please R.I.P. Hun I miss you so gosh damn much.*

Please take a moment for her..