So today after Summer school I was riding my bike around Troy where I go for school and I was heading up towards the College to meet up with my mom to come back home. I stopped at a Cumberland Farms to get some food and a drink. After I was done I turned my iPod back on and left the parking lot.

I was cutting across the road real fast when I heard "WATCH OUT!". As I heard this all I saw was a grey blur, blue blur, then pavement. The car had sideswiped me! And then THEY TOOK OFF! The people behind them stopped and was freaking out. The guy in the liquor store ran out and then ran down the street to this cop that was writing a traffic ticket. I got up moved my bike and stuff off the road. The cops came. Went after the guys but never found them.

Anyways I've got some nice road rash and I hit my head but thats about the extent of my injures. As for my bike its trashed. I filled out an accident report with the police and they asked if I wanted to go to the hospital. I said no of corse. The liquor store guy has seen the car more than once at Cumberland Farms so, they'll probably find them. I hope they do and I hope those assholes pay for what they did. It wasn't so bad though. Most excitement I've had in a while.  Lame eh? =]

 

So it's been hella long since the last time I wrote any sort of blog about anything on here. My life has been hectic and crazy and enjoyable and painfully dull and painful all at the same time. Let me explain.

I'm graduating a year early. (That's right, Class of 2009 baby!) This brings along a lot of joy and a lot of work and pain with it. I'm taking summer courses that started this past monday for 6 weeks. They're 1hour and 20 minute long College Classes, the first starting at 8 in the morning.  So my sleeping in is cut. Also, I'm planning on going to college as a guy fully and I dont want to be known as a girl so by graduating early it cuts my time to transition down a lot which is causing more problems between me and my parents. If I don't start transitioning within the next year I will not be going to college in the fall of 2009.  Graduating early will still be enjoyable however.

 Speaking of transitioning, things with my therapist have been going well. However my mother does not want me starting anything I cant reverse until I'm out of high school which bugs me. She doesn't seem to understand the pain I'm in. However whenever she comes back in with me, I will end up discussing that its not about wanting to be someone different, it's about ending this imprisonment I've been trapped in for so long.

 Love life? I'm in a wonderful relationship with this girl who has a profile on here, but never uses it. However this past monday her family has forced her to move with them 1,220 miles away to Longwood, Florida. We spent the weekened with eachother, but it never seems to be enough. I've been dating her for 2 months although we both liked eachother it seems since the day we met. We hit it off extremely fast when we met one year ago, june 30th. 1 Year later, june 30th, we're pulled apart and forced to say goodbye to one another. So far we're staying together, but we'll see what happens within the next 11 months. She's flying up to see me graduate next summer though, so win win there.

Wow alright, hmm. My friend Matt was staying with me for a while because he was kicked out of his grandparents house. Well about 2 months ago he lost his memory, all of it and went through a tough period. So that was a big stress along with school ending and stuff.

 Emmehs leaving for London this summer and I won't see her for like 5 years unless for some strange reason I get this awesome paying job and can fly myself out there to see her and Toneh and Pengi. Yeah, dream on dreamer boy. If you got that money you'd have to pay for other things.

 Why is being trans so fucking expensive? Why was I born to have to pay for happiness? How come no matter what happens and whatever I do I'm constantly depressed and constantly numb? I don't know what I want, I don't know what to do, I don't know where to go or who to turn to. Blech.

 Sorry emo moment. I guess I'll stop writing this before I think to much. Thought I'd just update for anyone who cares. 

Happy Fourth of July.  

Mom (3/22/2008 9:24:27 AM): we've kinda always known. we love you. whatever makes you happy!!!!!!!!!!!

=]

Mom + Dad,
       I’m writing this note because I’ve been keeping a secret (so to say). I never knew how to tell you, so I figured this would be the best way, so here it goes. I’m transgendered. Don’t get scared or upset. I’m not a freak. 1 in 500 births are trans. (Trans means born the wrong gender, so I’m male, not female like the outside shows.) This is not a choice. Why would I choose to hate myself? That’s just stupid. Also, there was nothing you did wrong to “make” me this way. I was born this way, so don’t beat yourselves up. I hope you can accept me and love me for who I am. I just want to be happy. I know this is a bad time, things are rough. However, I’ve known for over a year now, and it’s been eating away at me. I’m sick of feeling fake. I’m ready to shed this outer shell and be who I really am. Some of my friends know, and accept me. I hope you can do the same.
                                                              Love,
                                                                     JayTee (Becky)
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I'm giving it to them tomorrow. They'll find it and read it while I'm at work. After work I'll be going to a friends (straight there, her boyfriends bringing me there) and then we're going to a concert. So I won't be home all day. I'm excited. Im so sick of being depressed, It's my time now. =] 

Who the hell gives a shiz if Spitzer wanted to screw a hooker. Go him, more power to him.  Jeeze.  They need to stop attacking him and Bruno. It gets annoying, politics are annoying.

 We all know if Obama gets elected the KKK will be back, there will be several assassination attempts, and if he gets a power kick, us whiteys will get taken over. No racism punned or intended.  Clinton, she's already been in the white house. Do we need her again there as president? McCains gonna die the minute he gets elected and Huckabee...did he drop out yet?

 Anyways truth be told, I could care less about politics.

 Now the real reason I came to write this blog. I looked through some of my old ones and saw some mistakes I've made and things I've done over time that have just been stupid. This is my official apology to those of you who have been effected because of my actions and/or words. It may be in the "past" but it still can hurt and it bugs me that I've done that. I wish you all the best.

Kay well I guess I'm done for now. Time to get more SODA. and yeah, it's soda, not pop ;D

I feel like I'm dying. My throat hurts so bad. I'm either too hot or too cold. I swear I've only been sick for like a day now and I feel like I've lost a bunch of weight already. Which is good and bad haha. I don't wanna lose weight this way.  I Spend my entire day laying in bed, moaning and groaning. Missing work is a bummer. I was gonna make 400ish dollars for this entire week because of EAST COAST WINTER BREAK! God I better be better soon. I was hoping to be better by tomorrow but I cant even swallow like ow jesus christ. I better not wake up puking again. Oh man I wish I could just sleep until this was all over, I mean I have been doing a lot of sleeping, but theres times like these when I wake up and feel everything and its like FUCKK. Besides that I cant find my remote so Im stuck watching Soap Operas all day and Paid Programming at night. Somebody save me, give me a miracle pill!

So I don't know who reads these blogs, but my admin powers have been swiped out from under my feet. SO.

I shall post some useful information here:

 

 Join Everyone Allied Against Homophobia at Columbia University for our 7th annual Student Anti-Homophobia Leadership Summit (SAHLS) on March 29-30, 2008.

This 2-day conference focuses on skill-building for high school students who are involved in their Gay-Straight Alliances or other similar groups at their schools. We also welcome students who are interested in starting GSAs and would like the tools to do so.

Previous workshops have included topics such as recruiting new members, planning events, learning your rights as a student, and safe sex for the LGBTQ community. We have had speakers from the Gay/Lesbian/Straight Education Network (GLSEN), the New York Civil Liberties Union, and the Gay Health Advocacy Project, as well as student activists from Columbia.

The conference is free and includes all meals for the weekend. Overnight housing is provided in dorms with Columbia and Barnard students.

In order to attend SAHLS, you MUST APPLY by sending an e-mail to columbia.sahls@gmail.com. You will be sent an application which you will have to e-mail back. We can only accomodate a certain number of students, so we ask that if you apply, you are certain you can attend.

APPLICATION DEADLINE IS MARCH 6th!!!

Please e-mail rg2209@barnard.edu with any further questions.

 Facebook Event: http://hs.facebook.com/event.php?eid=8077738839&ref=mf

 

Anyways sorry guys =] Hopefully Ill go. If anyone is GOING definately please contact me! 

This might be a lost cause like everyone says but I really wanna find my board.  So!

 Last night at Jiminy Peak Ski Resort in Hancock, MASS my board was stolen/mistakenly grabbed from outside of JJ's lodge. It's a Black K2 Mini Zeppelin. 142 CM. Red Devil & K2 on the base. On the tail is a duct tape paw print. There's a devil/gargoyle thing inbetween the bindings and it says K2 Mini Zeppelin as well. The bindings are Navy Blue Ride LS. The Serial Number is 1083716.

 There's a possible reward for the finding of this board so please either message me here or Instant message me on aim.

Jimmythemushroom 

 ^^ my aim sn. Also if you dont have aim, email me. Just put @aim.com on the end of my SN.

 Please, if you're a skiier/boarder on the east coast KEEP AN EYE OUT FOR IT?!

Ill be extremely greatful!

 <3 JayTee

I'm probably taking a break from this site.
Obviously people of my kind aren't welcomed here after all.
I tried to talk, nice at first but you just didn't listen
And then you sounded like a broken record
And just pissed me off, so here you go.
you got what you wanted
I'm Banned from the chat and she's sucking up to you
To save herself and her manager position

Right now I could give 2... about this site.

I might be back later. Peace guys. 

Been this sick before.
I have over a 104 degree fever which means my brains like frying
My throat constantly feels like its swelling up
And I'm just in pain like all over and cold then hot and shit

Somebody bring me a miracle drug. <3

Oh yeah, I'm hallucinating
I looked outside and it was snowing
But in reality its not

I really dont wanna call in sick to the first weekend of training
And fucking Thanksgiving is tomorrow
And my cancer ridden grandma is coming
Argh I dont need this right now T_T