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Jul 04
2008
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Emancipation Of AmberPosted by Electrum in Untagged |
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Let me explain something about my mother...she loves me with all her heart. And I love her.
But I'm growing up, and I want to be acknowledged as an adult. She makes me crazy. Yesterday she wouldn't let me walk to the movie theatres in the middle of the day...she won't let me go anywhere alone. She won't let me wear any clothes without her permission. When I reason with her and tell her that I want changes...I want her to allow me to grow up. I can clean my room today...and if I put one thing out of place tomorrow she will stop me just as I am going out and make me put that one thing back. I can't ask her why. I can't ask her to change.
When I try to reason with her...her response is 'if you don't like it; get out.' She's unwilling to compromise.
I know that I should be grateful of her...I know she loves me, and even though she threatens to take things away, she still buys things for me, sacrifices a lot so that I may live a good life. She does not she the value in acceptance...and I want to see eye to eye but we can't.
It makes me think... if moving out is the only way to be recognized as an adult... is it worth it? I can get a welll-paying job easily...stay in the town I'm in. Finish my education and send myself to school. She gives me little choice...I can't be 18 in my mom's house asking if I can wear the jeans she bought me yesterday. I can't be 17 worried about my mother not giving me allowance since I spent a majority of the last one on something she thinks it is unworthy of (makeup). I can't live like this.
I love my mother....It seems the only way to salvage our relationship is to move out.
But I'm growing up, and I want to be acknowledged as an adult. She makes me crazy. Yesterday she wouldn't let me walk to the movie theatres in the middle of the day...she won't let me go anywhere alone. She won't let me wear any clothes without her permission. When I reason with her and tell her that I want changes...I want her to allow me to grow up. I can clean my room today...and if I put one thing out of place tomorrow she will stop me just as I am going out and make me put that one thing back. I can't ask her why. I can't ask her to change.
When I try to reason with her...her response is 'if you don't like it; get out.' She's unwilling to compromise.
I know that I should be grateful of her...I know she loves me, and even though she threatens to take things away, she still buys things for me, sacrifices a lot so that I may live a good life. She does not she the value in acceptance...and I want to see eye to eye but we can't.
It makes me think... if moving out is the only way to be recognized as an adult... is it worth it? I can get a welll-paying job easily...stay in the town I'm in. Finish my education and send myself to school. She gives me little choice...I can't be 18 in my mom's house asking if I can wear the jeans she bought me yesterday. I can't be 17 worried about my mother not giving me allowance since I spent a majority of the last one on something she thinks it is unworthy of (makeup). I can't live like this.
I love my mother....It seems the only way to salvage our relationship is to move out.
