You guys I'm totally like deathly sick... send me flowers, and popsicals, and puffs PLUS make sure the box says PLUS with lotion... I have sensative skin...

 

    Which ones do you use?

I use a lot, actually. Buddy4u, Myspace, outsmack, stickam ect...

 

What/Who do you believe in? 

Right now I officially love my state. I can't believe the assembly passed the NY Gay Marriage Legislation Bill 85-61!

 85 FOR!!

ZOMFG. >>; I love it.
Schools officially out, I'm done with testing =D

 

    If you have a crush on someone, and so does your bestfriend. Do you take them or let your friend have them?
 

well its getting harder to keep the smile on my mask, i want to let it drop and show everyone that i am in pain at their words, and how they think i am distant to them, when its them being distant to me. i'm leaving this town soon for a better life, one where i can start over and never put up a mask. a place where i can finally be free. its all i've wanted for a long time, but everywhere i went i was haunted by a shadow of who i once was, always expected to be that person. i guess this is the feeling you get when you learn that what you have done your entire life was just to build an image of yourself to blind the people with. they still can't see that a relationship that had kept me from going suicidal and gave me a reason to live is now over, all because they see the image and can't see past it and nothing can be wrong with me because what they really see doesn't fit that image. why can't they just for one day look at me and see that i do have problems, that i am not who i once was, how close i am to the edge again. will they ever see it i wonder?

Today is the fourth year I have been with out my grandfather. He was a wise man, and even though this day brings me great sorrow, I feel compasion for anyone who has ever lost someone. This one's for you guys;

Ah; how funny the death of a loved one. The pain, the sorrow, the loneliness cannot be expressed with words. In fact, I don’t think that Webster’s Dictionary even contains the words. Death isn’t the end it’s a beginning. Their memory, their heart, their soul lives within us all. That’s the ironic part; In the mists of all the bad things, there are moments of clarity. A loved one’s death brings us together. No matter how many ways people are different, the love, the loneliness, we feel after a great loss, connects us all. There’s a bit of the deceased in us all; an invisible rope that ties us together. We’re knotted together for all eternity. Te deceased are glaring down from heave, watching our every move; guiding us from day to day. The departed loved ones are walking together, rejoicing over their death. They left us all behind, here on earth, but they are getting to see the loved ones they lost; and they know, they will see us all again. Just because they are not physically here, that we cannot run in the door and hug them, as we had before, doesn’t mean they are not here at all. They live on inside of us. They live in all of the pictures, their memory, and most of all, our hearts.

I feel out relationship has become like an old tv. It was fine at first, but now it’s blinking; off and on, off and on. The once so simple black and white images have become blurred and misshapen. The once clear sound is now muffled by noisy, incomprehensible static. The characters that had been so virtuous, heartwarming, and simple have now become multi-shaded blobs that move around the screen, speaking a language unknown to man. And even though it’s broken, it’s something important; a memory. It’s so simple, so eloquent. It’s something you can tell your children and grandchildren about, despite the fact that they really don’t care. It’s so simple and eloquent. I wouldn’t trade my memories for anything in the world.  The sun, the clear blue sky, the moon, or the stars.

I know this cite it for gays and stuff.. but this is part of a story of a 16 year old lesbian who doesnt have support from her family and who isnt welcomed at her school very much and about a part of her life thats going on right now. this girl has brown/black hair and is 5 foot 3 and is a twin. shes turing 17 on September 6th.  Yet she has faced so much terror in her life and she thought it was over until June 1st when her doctors called her and told her she might have Leukemia. so heres her part of her story...

Her name is Danielle. shes been through court and shes been through stress. shes lost friend, even her best friend in February she passed away. but this is worse then anything shes faced. She has an 80% chance of Leukemia. Today at 12 noon she faced her first set of tests. well the doctor came in and said " its time to start but first we are doing a pap and spinal tap. and then we'll go to the blood work. so get ready and i'll be back soon" this was told to a 16 year old girl who drover herself down to the clinic and who is deathly scared of needles and who has been through trama all her life. the first thought she had was 'shit im screwed lets leave now'.. well she didnt leave she knew it had to be done. so she got into the little white gown and sat there crying her eyes wishing someone would be there with her holding her hand. but nope nobody was there except so many doctors in green lab coats and white ones too. so the doctor came back and said " well you ready? because we're starting. i know its not comfortable but you'll be okay" then they did what they did. the whole time this girl was crying and wishing she could be some where else... well as soon as the testing was over she walked to the counter and said ' im done here whens my next apt?' the lady told her Thursday. she got in her car and just cried. she didnt dare drive but she did dare cry. she went home and sat on her bed and cried more and more each time thinking what more there was to come.. but now shes sitting here aone in her house.

Im sorry that was just my day. yes that girl is me. im Danielle. this is only the first part of what is about to start. im so scared and everything. i dont know what to say or do or who to go to.. i wish someone out there would start to e-mail me and tell me they've been through this too. just so i have someone to talk to... please..

If your friend liked someone, and they had a really perverted, rude, obnoxious friend that you couldn't stand..

 

Would you go on a double date for your friend? Just so she could have a date with the guy she likes?